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June 8, 2009

Sunday Scribblings – Soulmates

Filed under: sunday scribblings — ~Kathryn~ @ 10:24 am

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it is going to be one of those subjects where everyone has their own distinct views …..

– i believe in soulmates
– i believe you can have more than one soulmate
– i believe once you have connected with a soulmate – you will always have that connection
– i believe soulmates come in “both sexes”
– i believe i have met three of mine …..  one of which are my life partner

When i met Lesley online, there was something i can just not explain, something that pulled me to him in a way i’d never experienced before. i was married, so was trying to ignore what was going on in my heart and my head. But after a while – i just ‘knew’ that i had to be with this person. So i left my husband, left my family and went to him – and the connection was amazing. i wish i was a better writer, so that i could write the words to express my connection with this man, how my eyes opened wide when he walked into a room, how my heart jumped if he came close to me, how our journey was meant to be together at that point in time.

we were together a few short weeks, and then ….. well i wont go into details … but lets just say the universe didn’t want us to be together. so things changed quicker than a blink and i felt so empty inside .. because of the connection we had … i didn’t know how i would ever go on without him …. ever …. again if i had the words to write about the hole in my heart the blankness of my mind ….

but my husband was there to pick me up and put me back on my feet, we reunited and moved forward, he knew … i was very clear with him, that my connection was still there to Lesley and i couldn’t imagine it not ever being there. it became just a natural part of our life …  that it was something that happened and we didn’t hide it or not talk about it …  there was not a lot of contact, and over the past 10 years it has become nothing – BUT – Lesley is still my soulmate – things remind me of him, thinking of certain things make me smile, in fact – every time i write i think of him, as he was the one who encouraged me, i wrote some amazing poetry after he left (well i think so  lol !!  PS – please don’t judge the post before this as my poetry  lol ) he was my muse, i wonder if his life ever settled down, wether the demons that plagued him were ever quietened .. i wonder how i would feel if i got the chance to see him again.

he truly was my first experience of a soulmate – and the joy i felt with him … just amazing

a few years later i met Mel,  i was attracted to her on a friendship level, and ‘almost’ physically as well – now this blew my mind a little … as was way out of my comfort zone. As our friendship grew, i didn’t realise it right at the time – but the connection and the attraction was part of her being my soulmate – we are connected – again in a way that i find hard to put into words. we spent a lot of time together in a short space of time … but again … the universe didn’t want us to be together and she moved to another state. I didn’t cope very well, i couldnt’ call her without crying for days afterwards, there was a gap in my soul …….

but about 6 months later … i rang her … and it was just like we had never left …. we finished conversations started 6 months ago …. it was then it ‘clicked’ we too were soulmates. she is an amazing woman, an amazing friend and i can not imagine not having her in my life. we still don’t talk every week, or even every month, but we know when the chips are down, we are there for each other – and we usually ‘feel’ it – and know its time to ring …..

my husband is also my soulmate – this is such a different connection though. this is a mix of the above two – with the addition of a comfort level that makes my soul rest easy. i know that having him by my side for the rest of my life is what the universe has in store. he is the father of my children, the man who can make me laugh, the man who makes me so fucking angry, the man who would do anything for me, the man who i want to make happy more than anything in the word

my love – my life – my soulmate

tomorrow – we will have been married 25 years – more than half my life ….. now that is ‘connection’

sometimes secretly wish i could meet another …. as the way my heart and soul feels when i make that connection ……is …… AMAZING

~Kathryn~

oh my goodness – a much more open post than i orginally thought of writing …. but i sit here now smiling … happy that i have been able to put these words down to share with the ‘world’

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8 Comments »

  1. and the best bit is ya haven’t met me yet…………

    I actually enjoyed reading this…

    Comment by Whitesnake — June 8, 2009 @ 12:30 pm | Reply

  2. Oh, Whitesnake is too damn funny!

    Thanks for opening up far more than you likely intended to. A fascinating life you’ve lead…to date.

    Comment by patois — June 8, 2009 @ 12:51 pm | Reply

  3. A good read! Fascinating…

    Comment by Tumblewords — June 8, 2009 @ 2:05 pm | Reply

  4. I had to come back for second read and……..

    I actually do put the seat down so Nyeh!

    Comment by Whitesnake — June 8, 2009 @ 4:57 pm | Reply

  5. Engrossing read and true for many people.
    This took courage to write so openly.

    Comment by Lynne — June 8, 2009 @ 5:23 pm | Reply

  6. Good thoughts here!

    stuck in time

    Comment by gautami tripathy — June 9, 2009 @ 2:12 am | Reply

  7. visiting here after dropping by Zannim’s

    Comment by david, — June 9, 2009 @ 2:13 am | Reply

  8. I’m really enjoying this prompt… all the different point views on soul mates. very good entry!

    Comment by Als Simmons — June 9, 2009 @ 8:41 am | Reply


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